That's right, I have managed to get sick. I hear strep is going around... Don't think that I have that but my throat def hurts like a mother and my nose hates life. COOOOOOOLLLLLLLL. I've definitely been eating plenty of vitamin C too so this is just ridiculous.
I'm definitely going crazy without being able to talk to my sister every day... this time difference is SO annoying! And it's not that I don't miss everyone else who normally inhabits my life but I mean... it's Kathleen. Sorry, she's my other half. But on a separate note I miss everyone, Massachusetts, Colorado, wherever you are, believe me stuff happens everyday that reminds me of people home in the USA and I automatically want to reach for my phone and then have that awful realization that I can't call/text you, hang out with you, etc. Some days it's worse than others. Now that I have classes it isn't so bad, but there are just some days where there is nothing to do and if you aren't with people at some random moment it's this intense feeling of "this has been fun but it's time to go home". It comes and goes so quickly I feel bipolar most of the time. It will literally come for a period of 15 minutes and then I'm totally fine and ready for an adventure here and couldn't care less that I'm thousands of miles from home. Those bad days though... where I have no motivation to leave my apartment, or my bed because as soon as I start a day it's the start of a day in another country, without anyone who I've become accustomed to having around me. Not fun, let me tell you. And I thought about not saying anything about my homesickness moodswings but I've also decided that I just don't care. It happens.
Classes are... "different" than at home. There are lectures and tutorials. Lectures are the same as any school, tutorials are broken down sections of the class where you discuss, debate whatever in depth about the lecture. It's mandatory to go, and it's pretty much forced participation. I hate that. If I have a comment or a question I'll ask I don't care to be pressured into having something to say, because not only will my mind go blank, but then I'll just feel AND look stupid. Not a fan of this. I think that is the thing that people complain about most here besides randomly missing home... the way the schools work. They told us at orientation to remember that "its not wrong its different" ... whatever. There isn't as much work in the classes but the work you do is worth SO much that if you do bad on one assignment you are pretty much going to have to fight to the death to get what would equal a high C in the states... HATE THAT! ... Who studies abroad with the intention of being studious? Not me!
I finally unpacked my stuff... until about 15 minutes ago my clothes were either thrown across my floor or in a pile in my suitcase. I organized and cleaned, Kathleen would be so proud, and pissed because I never clean at home ;) ... Have to go buy hangers now though, and that is annoying. I feel like everyday I have to walk across campus to go to the shopping centre because there is SOMETHING that I am missing or need to get that I forgot on the last trip. I need to find a job or I'm gonna run out of money so fast...
Anyways... time for bed for me. I don't feel well and I am determined to get to the beach this weekend. Gnight all!
This is for you Wareham... You're own fault Makenzie haha
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